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 I lost my phone at Cedar Point on the Magnum XL 200. It flew out of my coat pocket, on the slope of the dive. 200 feet up in the air, the infernal machine met the consequences of mother nature. Part of me regrets the oversight of failing to secure the device, but I can't lie to my readers. I can't lie to my friends. These few days have been peaceful without the rectangle. I want to see what my friends have to say, what my family might need, but I wish I didn't need the phone to do it. I've been trying to use my phone less, and here is God (?) taking the damn thing away from me. I guess somebody has to be the disciplinarian. I'm worried I might have missed something from Remas, or Manal, or from Indigo. I'll get back to them soon. Rent is coming up quick, and I'm worried we might be up the creek. I already sent my roommate my half of the rent two Sundays ago, but it says the balance hasn't been paid. I'm not sure what's going on here, but I'l...

The work week has started a little rough in some ways. Got that crick in my back already, I don't feel like a kid this week, thank God. I feel so old, and so tired. Left the wet clothes in the washer so I gotta do it over again. Missed Manal's texts, but Remas assured me she's alright. Gnats re-nesting in the sink drain, too much laundry to stomach. Car keys stopped working, had to walk down 8 Mile to get a fix. But I liked the walk. At first it seemed like a terrible hassle, but... I love the day when I'm outside in the air. Headin' down a street just too familiar, it let me see it with open eyes, my misfortune. I had that jazz in my head, those keyboards and fingers I'll always see in the beige and grey. I remembered the tinny familiarity of dreams in the rough, stepping aside the pit to let the sky wash over me as I find my place as one of the millions once again. One of the billions, let me stand corrected. I was thinking about what she might be. I'm thi...

I almost forgot how good I was at crying in silence until today. It's like I'm at the pharmacy again. Just another day.

My journey has brought me to an understanding Of the divine forces which we have all been bestowed It was in this search that I came upon a revelation Which has called me to guide millions of people towards their righteous destiny I bet I'll miss the apocalypse as consequence for forgetting to buy a ticket. Found out Persephone is gonna be in town when I'm elsewhere, and my nerve center's up the creek with that pollution all over again. This album is gonna suck ass. As I get it together, I can smell something on it indicative of my constitution at this moment. It sounds like the lady putting it together, ugh... So be it, so be it. I mope a little too much, don't I? My coworkers would never know I'm a chronic extrovert. I'm in a conjunctive malaise with Galahad. It's all coming together, but it doesn't look like the last picture. It's like grease, it's gristle. It's not the vegetative growth I was working through on the first act. It's com...

I'm eager to fall in love with her

And it ain't no use in turning on your light, babe That light I never knowed And it ain't no use in turning on your light, babe I'm on the dark side of the road But I wish there was somethin' you would do or say To try and make me change my mind and stay But we never did too much talking anyway But don't think twice, it's all right Slow progress on the projects right now. My uncertain health has made it difficult to rest my head in a spot that feels comfortable. I can't think about the tender things while my room is so dirty, y'know. I can't help but think... it's okay that it's ending. It's okay that it's too late. I've done my best. I'm gonna live to be a hundred years old, all through trying my best. I can't wait to see fifty, that much I'm sure of. It's going to be a painful world we'll see. The times approaching are unsightly. I'm ready for it. No matter what happens. I cant wait to grow old. I can...