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They got my number! All of those songs, I'm in the algorithm! It's on me. I gotta diversify again. What's different about the mix I've got? Alanis, Patti, Blossom, Warda, Jefferson, Sk1n, Loggins, BOC, Lydia, Kino, Cleaners, Carpenters, DAM, MC5, Judee, Chinese Football, Broadcast, Audrey, Nina, and Willie. I'm a poser, having fun! Tout doux, tout doux, tout doucement Toujours, tout doux, tout doucement Comme ça La vie, je la comprends N'allez jamais trop vite Vous avez tout le temps Attention à la dynamite Prenez garde aux volcans À ces jeunes énervés Qui ne savent pas aller The weekend has turned out unproductive yet refreshing. Everything happens! Nothing happens! Nothing is expected! I found myself enjoying life. I received a reading from a friend. I am teaching myself to believe in the promise of myself. I've all the confidence in the world to do it! I'm thinking less. Loosening up. To be less of anything at all allows for a social miracle. Every bl...

Old Man, look at my life, I'm a lot like you were How should I describe it? It was a weird feeling weekend. A small break from normalcy, but it was just all the same. Just a cut above being pedestrian, I guess. I'm not in the typical mode today. I can't figure out a way to orate as I usually would, I think I might be changing. For the better or for the worse, I'm not sure, but I'm wearing long sleeves today. Not a jacket either, or a button up. A real sweater. During work, I bit my toungue while eating a Torta, and now I have to keep this paper in my mouth to prevent myself from swallowing blood. I've been first and last Look at how the time goes past But I'm all alone at last Rolling home to you In my heart, I find myself just where I was a year before. Despite knowing all my strengths, despite knowing all my blessings, I find myself missing the call. I keep looking at myself. I have to stop. I must look outside. I will have to remember the embrace of the n...

Let me calm down. It's not that serious... they will be home tonight. I can talk to them calmly, and we'll solve it tonight. It's not that serious. I'm writing so I can get this all out. I'm writing so I can get this all out. I've been practicing techniques to keep my blood pressure down, to lessen the hypertension. Harder to do that when I'm getting screwed over on my days off. The turn of the season never been good to me. I'm gonna talk about something else. Right now I'm listening to New Radicals. Maybe Grosse Pointe can produce good things after all. This project is telling me I'm gonna need to be less likeable, somewhat (?) it's a weird thing to say. We're gonna stretch our legs out a little on this one. I'm trying to just be whatever I've got going on. I do want to attempt a more affirmative sort of feeling, right? But I'm not sure enough of anything to tell people what for, right? We're just gonna see where the open...

 I lost my phone at Cedar Point on the Magnum XL 200. It flew out of my coat pocket, on the slope of the dive. 200 feet up in the air, the infernal machine met the consequences of mother nature. Part of me regrets the oversight of failing to secure the device, but I can't lie to my readers. I can't lie to my friends. These few days have been peaceful without the rectangle. I want to see what my friends have to say, what my family might need, but I wish I didn't need the phone to do it. I've been trying to use my phone less, and here is God (?) taking the damn thing away from me. I guess somebody has to be the disciplinarian. I'm worried I might have missed something from Remas, or Manal, or from Indigo. I'll get back to them soon. Rent is coming up quick, and I'm worried we might be up the creek. I already sent my roommate my half of the rent two Sundays ago, but it says the balance hasn't been paid. I'm not sure what's going on here, but I'l...

The work week has started a little rough in some ways. Got that crick in my back already, I don't feel like a kid this week, thank God. I feel so old, and so tired. Left the wet clothes in the washer so I gotta do it over again. Missed Manal's texts, but Remas assured me she's alright. Gnats re-nesting in the sink drain, too much laundry to stomach. Car keys stopped working, had to walk down 8 Mile to get a fix. But I liked the walk. At first it seemed like a terrible hassle, but... I love the day when I'm outside in the air. Headin' down a street just too familiar, it let me see it with open eyes, my misfortune. I had that jazz in my head, those keyboards and fingers I'll always see in the beige and grey. I remembered the tinny familiarity of dreams in the rough, stepping aside the pit to let the sky wash over me as I find my place as one of the millions once again. One of the billions, let me stand corrected. I was thinking about what she might be. I'm thi...

I almost forgot how good I was at crying in silence until today. It's like I'm at the pharmacy again. Just another day.