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Right now, I'm back on a Nirvana kick. It's a little too irreplaceable. The song Pennyroyal Tea is having an all expenses paid vacation at the front of my head. Kurt's lyrics can feel cerebral to the point of inspiring paranoia. Before that, I was listening to groovier stuff, sort of in a cute harmonic kitsch... gave me all the wrong feelings. And what wouldn't make it worse than hearing that song, About a Girl. If only you guys could talk to her. If you could hear their voice, if you could see her face, you'd understand. Immediately. My entire mindset shifted a little yesterday. I saw my friends, my friends! And they looked great! Talking to them, they seemed fine, too. As in, their lives are going well, yknow. Archimedes stays involved in their activism, and Cronkite is working remote, he'll be moving to Europe! I'm gonna miss him, he's one of my best friends. I hope they treat him well over there. I really do... I'm a little sleepy. We split after...

紺位wagwan 皆slimes, Toronto語を勉強する、ネ、eh？ The fieldhouse hosts a staff full wonderful people, all very easygoing, and understandable in their drive towards getting through the day. They seem to like me. It's nice to work somewhere where we're all just friendly coworkers, and not a "family." Top left, crodie . Nobody feels entitled towards territorialism at a new rec center where most of the staff didn't know each other prior to their assignment here. Things are balanced just the right way here, for what I'm getting paid. Which is still basically nothing, by the way. 32k. My sister makes more than twice that, she's the best. I'm not sure if we knew growing up that we'd both be working with kids, but I guess God likes to bless people in roundabout ways. Making even one of the kids laugh keeps me going for days and days. It was easy to get over my guilt and whatever when I could talk to my coworkers, and get to know them better. Working with the elderly a...

Some people are simply not right in the head. They are simply too immature and hopelessly romantic to handle the idea of having someone's trust in their hands. I am definitely one of those people, good Lord. It was obvious I was wrong when it became apparent that she'd never make that trip down just to talk to me. That's when I knew I was off the mark with how she felt. What a hopeless sod I am, I even told her, I'm down to head up there whenever. And I meant that. If I could be a bitch for minute? I made a reckless, careless decision yesterday, and I don't regret it.  I confessed my feelings to Titania, over text. What a screw-up I've been, and yet... I feel like, whether it goes well or not, I finally let the truth have it's day. I finally ruined a friendship. I've never done this before. I don't think I've ever felt this way about anyone before. She'll likely bring the hammer down at some point, cause I have NOT gone about talking about it...