Money makes the world go round, the world go round, the world go round!
Ah, its such a treat, it really feels so authentic. I myself was caught in a sort of psychologically detrimental lovegame myself so this hit close to home, especially with the thematic backdrop of Nazism rising in the country as all this soap opera drama is going on.
We should probably be dissolving fascists in boiling acid before long, y’know? So we don't end up like that again. That scene where they're all singing in the biergarten... Tommorow Belongs to Me...
There's something so horrifying about how pedestrian it is, you know. I think I've written about it before, yes, but it never ceases to disturb me. I've seen pieces of it in my life, of course I have. I'm an American, I see Nazis every day. A relative is dating someone who likes Trump. My coworkers have said there are certain things about him they like, even though they claim to largely hate him and his ideas.
It's so easy how it creeps in. In slivers, in the casual air of the evening. It tiptoes in feelings, and it laughs when we turn away.
Everything turns into dust so quickly, it can seem like it happens overnight. But it is always slow. Hatred is really a sort of molasses, you know.
Liza Minelli, my shayla... please tell that "outlives" account to kick rocks again.
To my sadness, I think about work today. Ugh..... I economically cannot afford to call off, which is a shame because I really, really should. I am not sick, no. I am simply lazy and want to do weird unproductive stuff.
I am starting to enjoy these days alone. It's interesting because this movie is making me absolutely sick with heartache. It's so much I could die.
Im thinking, I'll make this a short entry. Its starting to happen again, I'm becoming conscious of the fact that I annoy people. On one hand I know its like "I shouldn't minimize myself for others, you're so special bleh bleh bleh" and all that helpful wisdom I've thrown away. On the other hand, I miss talking to people. I miss my friends, and they deserve better, you know? I am not the person they "befriended," I see that now.
I think I'll feel better after work today. See you guys tommorow. Or maybe not tommorow, I dunno. Maybe just... some other time. ✋️👋✌️🫰🤙👍👊👐🙏🫦
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