10/27/25 - Sore

I have a tendency to be overly saccharine in my entries, a little too wrapped up in my own emotions. But I decided I'm not gonna stop doing that. I love it.

I need to update you guys. I am still single, me and Birria Girl aren't a thing. We decided it'd be better to just stick together as friends and not make things complicated. I already mentioned this in an earlier post, I just wanted to clarify. Because I'm a twisted little bitch and I'm indulging too much in my crushes.

The sickness is back, Adrielle fans. This time about a mutual, on Instagram... how embarrassing. Not very mature or realistic of me to think like that at all, but fuck, I'm exhausted of being so austere and responsible irl. Had a lot of boundaries that were pushed really hard in the last week and a half and honestly I'm open to anything, literally anything, absolutely anything. If she doesn't like me, that's fine, its whatever. I noticed she stopped liking my posts and stuff when I posted the blog entry talking about Birria Girl, and to be honest I totally get it. I'm exactly the same way. I think she got over me, but I dunno. Maybe I'll see if she's ever available, and if she doesn't like me, I can leave her alone. I'm not a man, I'm not gonna beg.

I guess it's not as bad as I thought. I'm still sore from work, one of those kids punched me in the teeth while I was working the trail, it was really funny! Sometimes I wonder what's really going on in this head of mine, but this space right here is where I lay out the evidence of my changes. Part of the experience of writing this blog is knowing my peers might read it. You know I don't enjoy lying to people, so if anybody wants to hold anything against me (🥵 lmao) I'm open to that.

Guys... if I showed you this girl I'm delusional about, you'd understand. I'm serious. Fucking gorgeous, I think a goddess sculpted her out of clay. I think they make some people out of different material, I can never adjust to how disarming people can be on even the most boring days. I'll show you how unserious a crush can be, she had a candid video where she in like, an actually serious situation and stuff and the whole time I was thinking "Oh my God her voice is so pretty."

I think I need to be shot. She's not only out of my league, we're not even in the same state. If one of you guys does witchcraft can you do a spell to make me get over this girl before I embarrass myself trying to ask her out? I'm going to call out a specific friend: French Guy, please provide me the wisdom to stop developing crushes on mutuals. Thank you.

I'll end this one by switching gears. Ever since I managed to secure the transfer to Manal, I feel like a million bucks. I might go to Wendy's after I get paid and ask them to bring out Dave. I might go to Jars and ask for the Brian Wilson pack. My voice is still hoarse from screaming in that mask on Saturday so my voice is extra deep and groggy this week.
I can do that bit from George Carlin, WAR MEMORIAL STADIUM. GRIDIRON. HOW MANY DOWNS IS IT?

You see how pedestrian and regular my blog posts are when I'm in a good mood? Somebody needs to abuse me and break my heart again so I can pump out some literature. I'm joking, I promise.

I'll see you guys soon, GOD. I need a burger immediately. I'm technically at work, but I'm relaxing this week. Love you guys❤️.

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