6/29/26 - Walking On The Moon

Right now, with the plates I've got spinning, I'm just hoping the ground doesn't shake too soon, right?

I've got this promotion I'm waiting on, I've got to stay tidy for the new cat, I'm checking on my girls in Gaza, I've got my friends in the orgs and my friends in Ferndale, I've got to manage finances on a shitty salary, and I've got to keep going with my music and my art.

Sometimes I miss something else, but it only makes sense, y'know. I guess sometimes I forget I'm only human, since I try to go above and beyond what I'm afforded through creature comforts and subsistence, right?

The lady at No.1 Chinese Food seems to recognize me now, it's nice to see a smile. I like being a regular at my favorite places, I'm a real sucker for community connection.

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